Thursday, August 30, 2018

Let's Talk About All the Drama

I don't typically comment on the never-ending drama of YouTube personalities, but there has been such an onslaught of disgusting behavior and sharing "truths," and I just wanted to create a dialogue here as relates to the content and "mission" of my blog.

The entire purpose of my blog is to lower the hype. And the vast majority of that hype comes from YouTube personalities that have now come to be called "influencers" because they have that much of an influence on the market.

I've written dozens of posts about the predatory and manipulative nature of "influencer behavior," which is essentially getting paid great sums of money by brands to talk about products, hype products, and get their audiences to purchase. As I stated in the Racked article that I am quoted in, YouTube, in a lot of ways, still has an outward experience of being an authentic experience, and people don't realize that they're being marketed to in the same way as watching Katy Perry talk about CoverGirl.

Fact is, the reason you don't see a commercial for Morphe, Tarte, Too Faced, etc. is because these "influencers" ARE the commercial. And there IS a difference between someone having sponsored content to enable them to fund their freelance lifestyle and this predatory behavior.

The best way I can describe the difference is to look at how sponsorships are done on some of my favorite podcasts. At the start of the podcast—before we get to any content at all—the hosts will say, "Here's a word from our sponsors" and then give the ad. The ad has nothing to do with the content in the podcast. I mostly listen to true crime podcasts, and my favorite ones are sponsored by meal delivery services, hair color companies, and mattress companies. That has absolutely nothing to do with a true crime story. These are companies that want to advertise on the platform and pay the hosts for the advertisement space.

Compare that to a video by Tati, Jaclyn Hill, NikkieTutorials, or any other "mega" YouTube makeup personality where they devote an entire video to one specific product or range of products and then mention at the end that the entire video was sponsored. The video is the ad instead of a company advertising on their platform with their existing content.

In the past few weeks, it has surfaced that a lot of the heavy hitters in the makeup "influencer" industry are, in fact, racist, manipulative, and money/fame hungry. And I'm sure many of you can relate that this came as absolutely no surprise at all.

I often talk about the racist overtones and undertones of the beauty industry, which include:

  • The utter lack of representation in foundation shade ranges
  • Stores not carrying the dark shades of foundation and making them available online only
  • Little to no collaborations with women of color in terms of expanding or creating products
  • Eyeshadow palettes clearly geared toward light skin tones
  • Eyeshadow palettes containing "brow bone" and "transition" shades for light skin tones, but not equivalent shades for dark skin tones 
  • Naming products "nude" that are beige and only nude for light skin tones
  • Appropriation of African American Vernacular English (AAVE) in product names that are not inclusive

Among many, many others.

It shouldn't be shocking, therefore, that many of these "influencers" don't talk about or advocate for inclusivity.

As an example, here is a smattering of makeup collaborations or original products from several influencers that are ALL geared toward light skin tones.

NikkieTutorials:


Tati:


KathleenLights:


Gwen Stefani (not on YouTube, but the example is relevant):


Laura Lee:


MannyMUA:


Also MannyMUA:


Jaclyn Hill:


Also Jaclyn Hill:

Carli Bybel:


Grav3yard Girl:


Emilynoel83:



Let's talk about this last one, because it truly pains me to put Emily in the same category as many of these other people. Emily very recently came out with two palette launches through Revolution Makeup. One was called "The Needs" (pictured above) and one was called "The Wants" (which I purchased). 

I have watched Emily for years and find her to always be a fresh breath of air in the YouTube beauty world. But something that always upsets me about her content is that she never talks about inclusivity. She will tear into a Tarte or Too Faced palette for quality, texture, color payoff, and other factors, but she doesn't address how most of these products are 1. The same And 2. Only for light skin tones. 

So for her to make a palette, call it "The Needs," and say that it is filled with all the shades that one would need, is upsetting to me because it is so obviously geared toward light skin tones. These are the shades that Emily herself "needs," but won't work for many, many people. 

With that said, her other palette, "The Wants" appears to be inclusive, and I did purchase it for this reason. Emily seems to be a very genuine person with good intentions, but avoiding controversy about race, representation, and inclusivity is also a problem. 

As for the other palettes I included above, there may be the occasional shade that could work for deeper skin tones, but it is obvious that they were made with light skin tones in mind. Several of these products were collaborations with major brands, and it's impossible to know how much or how little creative control they had over shade range and inclusivity. Nonetheless, the sheer number of these palettes that look exactly the same is disheartening and really speaks to the persistence of this problem. 

When you have a voice and a platform, you need to take that responsibility seriously. Because that's what it is—a responsibility. To publicly tweet a horribly racist statement and try to victimize yourself at the backlash is deplorable. To say a racist word while playing video games, offer no apology on your biggest platform, and then say that you just said "a bad word," is also disgusting. For many of these people, they are not upset because they realize the gravity of what they have done and feel sickened over their own behavior—they are upset because they don't want to jeopardize their income and lifestyle. 

When you have millions of people who watch you, trust you, and maybe even look up to you, that is an immense responsibility. There will always be different political points of view, but there are also issues that are completely binary and do come down to "right" and "wrong." Hatred, bigotry, xenophobia, and racism will always be WRONG. And if you're more concerned with how much money you're making instead of how much you're perpetuating dangerous ideals is condemnable. At the same time, as a consumer, if you care more about a makeup item or watching a problematic personality than you do about condoning these ideals, then you are also culpable. 

The other side of the drama right now is the lack of transparency and disclosure about which brands are featured in YouTube videos and which are not. And, unsurprisingly, the ones that are most prominently featured are the ones that pay a lot of money to these influencers. So when you see a "monthly favorites" video, you're going to see some products that are only favorites because they came with a huge sum of money. 

Again, this isn't surprising. I knew the moment I saw Morphe pop up everywhere that they paid for that to happen. Their best products are mediocre at best, but impressionable people really love being able to buy whatever their favorite YouTube personality used and claimed was a favorite.

This is all just predatory and manipulative behavior, and it's why I started this blog. Marketing in general is incredibly manipulative. Companies want to convince people that they need something that they actually don't. And what companies saw with the rise of the YouTube "influencer" is that people are much more likely to buy something if their "best friend" recommends it than if they see a commercial for it on television. Because one is obvious marketing and the other is built on an established (or perceived) trust. 

In my personal life, I am "the makeup person" for most of my friends. If they need to buy a new mascara or cleanser or blush, they will come to me and ask what I recommend. And every single time, they buy literally whatever I say. I've said to a friend, "Oh, I really love this new eyeshadow" and they have gone out that day to buy it for themselves. 

Imagine that on a platform with a reach of millions of people. That has the ability to sway an entire market; to make a brand successful; or to create immense financial hardship for a brand. 

And the only way to combat it is to be a smart consumer. Marketing tactics prey on vulnerable people. "Having a hard day? Treat yourself to a new mascara!" As I mentioned in my recent post about my former makeup addiction and depression, that entire mindset is how I became so dependent on the fleeting "happiness" that came with the high of a new purchase. 

And when you regularly watch these YouTube channels, you always have some product in the back of your mind that someone recommended that you'll inventively buy during a sale, as a celebration, or as consolation for a hard day. 

YouTube was once a platform where people would just chat and share. I remember watching tutorials eight years ago when someone would say, "Put a brown color in your crease—any of them will work." But now it's that you have to apply a specific shadow with a specific brush, oh, and by the way, here's my affiliate code

In a lot of ways it's the equivalent of watching nonstop HSN or QVC. Can you imagine how much stuff you would buy if your main entertainment consumption was a home shopping network? That's what has happened now with YouTube and every social media platform. 

In the end, I think it's always important to remember that these people are not our real-life friends, no matter how much we feel like we know them through their content and social media posts. For many of them, they curate a very specific image that they publicly portray and are solely concerned about their own financial success—and will do anything to protect it. As consumers, we need to recognize that behavior and be smarter about our purchasing decisions.

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Sunday, August 26, 2018

One Week, One Palette: BH Cosmetics Weekend Festival

I wasn't planning on doing a "one week, one palette" post this week, but it happened (well, mostly). I started the week by using a palette, and on day two, I realized that I owned the BH Cosmetics Festival palette, which I didn't even remember. Months ago, when I was taking a mental break and not wearing any makeup, I was gifted this palette, but I had no intentions of keeping it and I never used it. When I was shuffling through all my palettes this week, I found it and decided to try it before decluttering. And I ended up liking it so much that I wanted to keep using it every day. Almost like how a "normal" person approaches makeup when they don't own an unnecessary amount of it.

So here was the first look of the week:

Jaclyn Hill x Morphe





Lid: Diva
Transition: Silk Creme and Pooter
Crease: Pukey
Outer Corner: Enchanted
Inner corner: Beam
Lower lash line: Diva
Brow bone: Wet N Wild Brulee

I've done this look before, and it's certainly my favorite that I can create from this palette. Diva is a pretty unique color to my collection, and I really love how it makes a non-traditional smoky eye. Morphe mattes are not great, but I find the ones in this palette good enough to work with to make this look. I probably only use about 20% of the shades in this palette as I find most of them pretty redundant within shades of brown or red. But this is one of the standout colors for me, and I'm always happy to do this look. 

In terms of the BH Cosmetics Weekend Festival palette, here are four looks I did last week:


Look 1:




Inner lid: Euphoria
Outer lid: Boho
Transition: Electric
Crease: Swag
Above crease: Hippie
Lower lash line: Swag
Brow bone: Wet N Wild Brulee

The lighting in my new place is not great, so when I first put this look together, I felt like there was no impact on the lid. As the day went on and I saw the look in other lighting, I realized the shadows were much more vibrant than I originally thought. Nonetheless, I still felt the colors on my lid were pretty subtle, especially when compared with the matte shades. Overall, I do really like the look, but it is very much within my "strong pink" comfort zone that I've been in for over a year. 

Look 2:




Lid: Carnival
Transition: Electric
Crease: Dippie
Outer corner: Swag
Inner corner: Trixie
Lower Lash line: Swag
Brow bone: Wet N Wild Brulee

The irony about this look is that I didn't want to do a blue color on the eye with a brown in the crease (because I've done that look a lot), so I went with the pink crease, which is something I seem to incorporate into almost all of my looks. I think this is a pretty look, and I like how the blue almost looks silver. 

Look 3:




Lid: Solstice (applied wet)
Transition: Electric
Crease: Dippie and Swag
Inner corner: Spirit
Lower lash line: Swag
Brow bone: Wet N Wild Brulee

This was my favorite look of the bunch, but I bet that's surprising to no one. I've done some version of this look almost every week that I've worn makeup for at least a year now, and I did it earlier in the week as well. I used the lid shadow wet, and I certainly liked the effect more than when I used it dry. 

Look 4:




Lid: Neon (applied wet)
Crease: Palooza
Above crease: Kandi
Lower lash line: Trance
Brow bone: Wet N Wild Brulee

To close out the week, I went with a much more colorful look, and I honestly wasn't sure how I felt about the aqua in the crease, but I figured I would just roll with it. Like the previous day, I applied the lid shadow wet, and I loved the intensity of it. 

Favorite look: 

Look 3, featuring Solstice.

Lease favorite look: 

If I had to pick, I guess it would be Look 2, featuring Carnival, but I didn't dislike the look at all. There were just others this week that I liked more. 

Final thoughts:

I really like this palette. I wasn't really planning on caring for it too much, and I certainly wasn't expecting to keep it in my collection, but I think I will hang on to it for a bit longer as I work through my collection and curate it a bit more. 

The mattes in this palette are really good, and I think that's really where the palette sings. The shimmers are okay, but they aren't anything exceptional. I liked the shimmers when applied wet, but I feel like that could be said for most shimmers. 

I like the color scheme and like that it's a nice mix of colors and neutrals as well as shimmers and mattes, and I also like that the color scheme is inclusive and not just curated for light skin tones. 

With that said, I feel like I can probably duplicate this entire palette with colors that are already in my collection. The most unique shades to my collection are probably:
  • Kandi (true peach with a pearl finish)
  • Palooza (matte aqua)
  • Neon (shimmery lime-green)
  • Electric (matte bright, light pink)

In a 20-shadow palette, the fact that only four shades are somewhat unique to my collection is not a great statistic. But, for a lot of people, this could be a pretty unique palette. It comes close to having all the shades of my duped peachy matte palette, and it has similar shades to the Kylie Cosmetics Blue Honey palette, all within a single palette. It's a nice color selection.

Personally, I'm going to keep it in my collection for right now and see what happens as I declutter my palettes. I did buy a palette this week, which utterly surprised me, but it was the palette that Emilynoel83 made (The Wants). Her humility, enthusiasm, and graciousness were just overwhelming, and in a sea of shills and egos, I couldn't help but want to share in her excitement. Plus, I think she made a lovely palette that is inclusive. 

I really like BH Cosmetics Weekend Festival, but realistically, it might be one that gets decluttered (or depotted) as I downsize. 

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Sunday, August 19, 2018

Weekly Looks

As I mentioned in my last post, I have even more recent looks, so for those who missed these posts, I hope you enjoy the onslaught of them. My last post was a collection of looks I had done recently while trying to rediscover my collection. And these looks are ones that I wore last week, while, again, attempting to rediscover my collection.

Here are those looks:

Look 1: Yellow gold and matte purple




Lid: Shimmery yellow gold
Transition: Matte cool brown
Crease: Matte purple
Brow bone: Matte cream
Inner corner: Shimmery white
Lower lash line: Matte purple

I've done this look before, but with different shadows, and the look came out basically the same. I like the look, but I think it can be easily recreated with a multitude of shadows. 

Look 2: Fyrinnae It Beautifies! 





Base: Pixie Epoxy
Lid: It Beautifies! 
Transition: Viseart warm brown matte
Crease: Inglot warm brown matte
Brow bone: Viseart matte white
Inner Corner: Make Up For Ever Pearl
Lower lash line: Inglot warm brown matte

Fyrinnae It Beautifies! is hands-down one of my favorite eyeshadows that I own. It is so perfect and simple and beautiful, and the way it shines when the light hits it is truly special. This is one of my top recommendations for a Fyrinnae shadow.

Look 3: Anastasia Beverly Hills Subculture





Lid: Electric (applied wet)
Transition: Dawn
Crease: Destiny
Outer corner: Untamed
Brow bone: Wet N Wild Brulee

Right before I left New York, I was gifted this palette, which made me laugh a bit since there was so much drama surrounding it. I've used it a handful of times since, and I do like the color scheme, but as others have noted, it is hard to work with. I liked this look and thought it was pretty, but I think I can create better looks with other items in my collection (see immediately below). 

Look 4: Fyrinnae Abandoned Hotel and Viseart Dark Matte






Base: Pixie Epoxy
Lid: Abandoned Hotel
Crease: Viseart 7
Defined crease: Viseart 12

Doing the Subculture look made me want to do more green looks, so I turned to one of my favorite green shadows, Fyrinnae Abandoned Hotel. I then paired it with my workhorse palette, Viseart Dark Matte, and I think the look came out beautifully. When compared to the look from ABH, I think this one is much more vibrant and beautiful. It was also easier to apply. 

Look 5: Pat McGrath Labs Mothership Subliminal Platinum Bronze 





Lid: Smoke and Mirrors
Crease: MAC Quarry
Outer corner: Telepathic Taupe 
Brow bone: Wet N Wild Brulee
Lower lash line: Smoke and Mirrors

I raved about the Pat McGrath Mothership IV palette in my last post, but I don't think I like this one very much. This look came out so dull, and I feel like I could have easily created it with other colors in my collection. I felt so bad about it, in fact, that I used the palette the next day to see if maybe I would like it more...

Look 6: Pat McGrath Labs Mothership Subliminal Platinum Bronze 




Lid: Platinize
Crease: Milani Sweet as Honey
Inner corner: Sextrovert
Brow bone: Can't Pink Straight
Lower lash line: Platinize

... and I don't. Of course, this is a lovely bronze/gold shadow, but it's not any nicer than what I already own. I might try to use the other shadows in the palette that I haven't used yet, but based on swatches, they don't look promising. This might be a palette that I declutter in my upcoming purge. 

Favorite look: Fyrinnae Abandoned Hotel and Viseart Dark Matte

This was definitely my favorite look this week because the colors blended well and really stood out. It felt like a strong eye look, but also one that wasn't too loud. I also enjoyed the color combination as I've been gravitating toward olive, mustard, and orange tones. 

Least favorite look: Pat McGrath Labs Mothership Subliminal Platinum Bronze – Smoke and Mirrors

I hate to say that a product from Pat McGrath was my least favorite of the week (especially in a category that includes ABH Subculture), but it's true. I just really did not like this look at all, and I was really disappointed with the lid shade. It was pretty, but just not special like I have come to expect from Pat McGrath. 

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